I admit. I’m spoiled.

In a time where some people are desperately looking for jobs, I’m grumbling about having to be transferred to some forsaken place all the way at the other end of the island. If that’s not all, like a spoiled brat, I’m think about quitting if I’m not to get what I want, or rather get what I don’t want.

What’s 4 hours wasted everyday anyway? Isn’t time meant to be wasted away? Guess that the time spent travelling meant much more to me than the salary they dump into my pockets every month.

Felt quite guilty when WL is going out of his way to help me to get a transfer. But even he says that my reason (long distance) is a weak one. Doesn’t anyone feels the same way as I do? Money’s more important than time?

Okay, granted that I don’t really make good use of my time. At least I’d like to have the choice to waste it myself and not let some stupid job wrest that from me.

Sigh… Seems like I’m making this way out of proportion. Am thinking that maybe I should have just tendered when I found out I’m getting relocated and not tell anyone. But it’s too late already.

Life in the office will never be the same again, for better or for worse.

Lina raced me home today! We were trying to see who could reach home faster from Yishun, her taking the train and me taking the bus.

As it turned out, she won. And I, who narrowly missed the first bus out of Yishun, now had to buy her drinks. Not that I mind though. Kinda fun actually (I was using my mental powers to urge the bus driver to drive faster)!

Anyhow, didn’t managed to take out my camera to shoot today because… someone told me that the rain would come today (~rolls eye in the direction of Lina). Cheated!

And ooooooh! I just found out Kailin also bought her 500D today! So coincidental!

So let the cameramen/women gather! Haha!

Oooh… Finally got my first SLR, 8 years after I last touched one! Presenting my very own Canon Rebel T1i 500D! Tada~

Went down to Funan with Joanne and Kim on Saturday to scout for our cameras and lenses. Kim had a dream that Joanne bought it before we even met while I dreamed that my 500D went out of stock. As for Joanne, she dreamed that her D90 was sold out.

In the end, all of us dreamed wrong. Both Joanne and me got our cameras… but fortunately/unfortunately (delete where applicable)… Kim didn’t manage to get the lens. Saved him from the poison, heh~ Not that his girlfriend seemed very happy with him spending money on his toys.

The temptation to head straight home to try out our toys proved to be so, so strong. Logic and common sense dictated otherwise though. Both Joanne and me knew that we need to charge our cam batteries before we play. So in the end we left Kim with his girlfriend and head over to find Michelle et al for KTV.

Even so… our topics never strayed far from our brand new cameras. Alas, by the time we got home, we were too tired to absorb any information about the cameras from the manuals. How ironic that we spent the whole day talking about our new toys only to be too exhausted to play with it when we had the chance. There was still the matter of the batteries though…

Nope, not what you think. Didn’t take a single shot of picture today.

The freelance job is finally 95% completed. So tiring! Well, it really didn’t have to be, but true to my nature, I left it to the last minute to take advantage of my increased efficiency. Comes bundled when working close to deadlines. Also meant that I could only drag my half-limp body to bed at 6am in the morning.

Only to struggle awake barely 3 hours later to catch up with Joanne and Kim to look at our cameras. More or less decided on what we want already. Nikon D90 for the rich girl, Joanne and EOS 500D for the poor boy cloudie. If that was not enough, Kim tried to poison us some more over lunch, recommending this glass and that.

Drag myself back home to catch a nap. Thanks to Cass who pushed back our tea meeting to dinner. I guess I would have drop dead if she hadn’t. As it turned out, I woke up late and had to rush down to meet her at town for some japanese curry. Probably never again (at least not with her) as she was uncomfortable that the waiter guy was too friendly. Hmmm…

Then it’s rushing off again to meet Lina for Evangelion 2.0. Such rushing is not good for health, I declare, for a person desperately in need of sleep. But the movie was not bad and kinda enjoyed it.

And now Lina’s trying to poison me into infrared photography…

Camwhores are we. Lol~

Been away for the past week. Was kinda worried that Monkey might forget me after not seeing me around for so “long”. She usually does and I’m starting to suspect she has amnesia… or maybe she’s just pissed at me for not being around to shower attention all over her furry hide.

Missed her even more when I met Cookie in the reservist camp (christened her thus because I bumped into her at the cookhouse). She’s a kitten, roughly the same age as Monkey was when I first laid eyes on her. Really a playful thing, so unabashed in playing with everyone she sees. In that, she’s so unlike Monkey who’s usually very guarded (a mild word) around strangers.

Had a strong temptation to bring her home to be Monkey’s playmate. Maybe she can help Monkey overcome her shyness (another mild word). Didn’t think I could stuff her in my fieldpack and just walk past the guards though. ~Shrug

Pissed.

Sometimes when someone ask you something, please stop to think. Maybe that person is really perplexed by what you had said. Don’t bloody dismiss with a stop-asking-stupid-questions. If the questions are really so stupid, don’t make others confused.

Now run along like the coward you are and avoid the repercussions.

The light crept in and sneaked up on you,
painting your skin a dainty white.
A serene picture of a dreaming you,
your sleepy breaths a sigh.
I couldn’t help myself
and gave your hair a soft hushed kiss.
You stirred, I froze
not wanting to break this spell.
Instead you turned and curled against me,
a trace of smile edged across your lips.

I struggled in my reverie
as the grey light drew up your side,
wondering if I could somehow save this
with my petty words so vain.
Yet in my frenzied grabbing,
amidst your sighing whispers,
a lone word shone like the fire from yesternight -

You… You… You.

Jacqueline told me that guys with sweet tongues are not to be trusted after I told her she didn’t look her age. So am I not to be trusted?

This made me remember what happened at the mahjong session the other day. I was playing with my friend and another 2 of his friends, a girl and a guy. After the game, my friend told me that the guy wasn’t happy with me. I was like, “Huh? What did I do?” Turned out that the guy wasn’t happy with me flirting with the girl throughout the game.

What the shit? I wasn’t flirting with anyone at all lo. The only reason I was talking to her only most of the time was because my friend was concentrating on playing the game and his guy friend was so busy having PMS.

Then my friend remarked that he also felt the same way. Bah~ Got meh??? Maybe I’m just doing it unconsciously. Though that girl quite pretty. Haha~

But one thing for sure, I’m quite sweet right???? =x

Today, our ‘cher told us to learn how to play the chords to the Andy Williams’ song, Speak Softly Love. Not before he performed live in front of us. Then he told us to play while he sang. Obviously we made a mess out of it. But it’s still a nice song, made famous by the Godfather.

♦

Speak softly, love and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words, the tender trembling moments start
We’re in a world, our very own
Sharing a love that only few have ever known

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one

Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all because
You came into my world with love so softly love

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one

Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all becau-au-se
You came into my world with love so softly love

I was looking for songs in my old repository to dump in my nano earlier when I came across songs from one of my favorite Japanese singers, Masami Okui. Don’t think a lot of people have heard of her (besides those who watch anime). Posted a transliteration of Stillness earlier (courtesy of Teresa Ko). Now I’ll share another nice song of hers… full of meaning also, transliterated by the same person also.

言い訳, in other words, excuses.

When we first met
On that day, at this place,
We were enveloped
By a wonderfully soft wind.

The two of us laughed freely,
And though the distance between us made me ache,
I couldn’t stop
The quickening beat of my heart.

Facing the train station, she waited
But before she knew it,
His departing figure disappeared into the crowd,
Without even looking back at me
As I endlessly waved my hand.

No matter what kinds of lies
There may have been between us,
I want to show you
My most brilliant smiles.

Listening to this song
That was your favorite,
I would sing quietly to myself in the night
And look up at the sky

Facing the stars, which shine as though just about to disappear
My heart fills with desires,
Wishing for someone’s sorrow and, at the same time, happiness
How selfish I am…

‘I can never love you…’
I know the truth
Your gaze is fixed on the person you’ve always loved,
So you gently withdrew your hand from mine
In a sort of kindness
I, a coward, couldn’t respond or look you in the face,
And endlessly I search for excuses.
A wind has suddenly whirled up,
Carrying the same scent it had on that day,
Enveloping me, even to this day.