Posted by: cloudie | November 9, 2009

Cloudie, Monkey and Cookie

Been away for the past week. Was kinda worried that Monkey might forget me after not seeing me around for so “long”. She usually does and I’m starting to suspect she has amnesia… or maybe she’s just pissed at me for not being around to shower attention all over her furry hide.

Missed her even more when I met Cookie in the reservist camp (christened her thus because I bumped into her at the cookhouse). She’s a kitten, roughly the same age as Monkey was when I first laid eyes on her. Really a playful thing, so unabashed in playing with everyone she sees. In that, she’s so unlike Monkey who’s usually very guarded (a mild word) around strangers.

Had a strong temptation to bring her home to be Monkey’s playmate. Maybe she can help Monkey overcome her shyness (another mild word). Didn’t think I could stuff her in my fieldpack and just walk past the guards though. ~Shrug

Posted by: cloudie | November 2, 2009

Short Fuse

Pissed.

Sometimes when someone ask you something, please stop to think. Maybe that person is really perplexed by what you had said. Don’t bloody dismiss with a stop-asking-stupid-questions. If the questions are really so stupid, don’t make others confused.

Now run along like the coward you are and avoid the repercussions.

Posted by: cloudie | October 27, 2009

You

The light crept in and sneaked up on you,
painting your skin a dainty white.
A serene picture of a dreaming you,
your sleepy breaths a sigh.
I couldn’t help myself
and gave your hair a soft hushed kiss.
You stirred, I froze
not wanting to break this spell.
Instead you turned and curled against me,
a trace of smile edged across your lips.

I struggled in my reverie
as the grey light drew up your side,
wondering if I could somehow save this
with my petty words so vain.
Yet in my frenzied grabbing,
amidst your sighing whispers,
a lone word shone like the fire from yesternight -

You… You… You.

Posted by: cloudie | October 27, 2009

Untrustworthy

Jacqueline told me that guys with sweet tongues are not to be trusted after I told her she didn’t look her age. So am I not to be trusted?

This made me remember what happened at the mahjong session the other day. I was playing with my friend and another 2 of his friends, a girl and a guy. After the game, my friend told me that the guy wasn’t happy with me. I was like, “Huh? What did I do?” Turned out that the guy wasn’t happy with me flirting with the girl throughout the game.

What the shit? I wasn’t flirting with anyone at all lo. The only reason I was talking to her only most of the time was because my friend was concentrating on playing the game and his guy friend was so busy having PMS.

Then my friend remarked that he also felt the same way. Bah~ Got meh??? Maybe I’m just doing it unconsciously. Though that girl quite pretty. Haha~

But one thing for sure, I’m quite sweet right???? =x

Posted by: cloudie | October 21, 2009

Andy Williams – Speak Softly Love

Today, our ‘cher told us to learn how to play the chords to the Andy Williams’ song, Speak Softly Love. Not before he performed live in front of us. Then he told us to play while he sang. Obviously we made a mess out of it. But it’s still a nice song, made famous by the Godfather.

Speak softly, love and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words, the tender trembling moments start
We’re in a world, our very own
Sharing a love that only few have ever known

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one

Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all because
You came into my world with love so softly love

Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one

Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all becau-au-se
You came into my world with love so softly love

Posted by: cloudie | October 19, 2009

Masami Okui – 言い訳 (Excuses)

I was looking for songs in my old repository to dump in my nano earlier when I came across songs from one of my favorite Japanese singers, Masami Okui. Don’t think a lot of people have heard of her (besides those who watch anime). Posted a transliteration of Stillness earlier (courtesy of Teresa Ko). Now I’ll share another nice song of hers… full of meaning also, transliterated by the same person also.

言い訳, in other words, excuses.

When we first met
On that day, at this place,
We were enveloped
By a wonderfully soft wind.

The two of us laughed freely,
And though the distance between us made me ache,
I couldn’t stop
The quickening beat of my heart.

Facing the train station, she waited
But before she knew it,
His departing figure disappeared into the crowd,
Without even looking back at me
As I endlessly waved my hand.

No matter what kinds of lies
There may have been between us,
I want to show you
My most brilliant smiles.

Listening to this song
That was your favorite,
I would sing quietly to myself in the night
And look up at the sky

Facing the stars, which shine as though just about to disappear
My heart fills with desires,
Wishing for someone’s sorrow and, at the same time, happiness
How selfish I am…

‘I can never love you…’
I know the truth
Your gaze is fixed on the person you’ve always loved,
So you gently withdrew your hand from mine
In a sort of kindness
I, a coward, couldn’t respond or look you in the face,
And endlessly I search for excuses.
A wind has suddenly whirled up,
Carrying the same scent it had on that day,
Enveloping me, even to this day.

Posted by: cloudie | October 18, 2009

Coffee-Inspired

I finally finished what I started a few years ago and penned the ending to the mini-story I wrote some time back. I guess the coffee and the sofa at Starbucks really helped, as much as getting out of the house. In the end, I closed to rewrite the entire piece. Well, now I can move on to think about how to continue the chapters.

As mentioned, I was at Starbucks waiting for my friends. Earlier I realised that I forgot to charge my laptop battery. Damned. I was hoping that the mini-charge at Gleneagles could last till they come. Till I spotted that tantalising power point at the table next to me. Alas, the table was taken by this very big-sized guy. Still that didn’t stop me from stealing glances at that corner.

It seemed that my patience was rewarded when the latest glance caught 2 empty sofa chairs. I gathered up my stuff as quickly as I could and almost flew over to the table in glee. Till I saw the guy at the counter staring at me. What could I do but nod apologetically at him before retreating back to my table, consigned to having my laptop die on me before my friends arrive?

I didn’t expect the same guy to give me a tap on my shoulder some time later as he walked past, indicating to his vacated spot. Thanking him, the pile of stuff in my arms was the only thing that stopped me from rushing that coveted table and its power point.

That gesture from the guy got me believing again! Nice people in Singapore exist! =]

Posted by: cloudie | October 14, 2009

Suddenly I See

Well, the day started as usual, with me rolling on the bed refusing to get up. A warm shower did help to bring me back from dreamworld. In fact everything was the same, including the late part.

Throughout the journey, I kept feeling my pulse to see if my heart was thumping. Not really. Not nervous too as I predicted I would be. The only thing I was anxious about was me being late. Otherwise, I got to the clinic without any incident.

I learned something new today at the clinic: our NETS card can only have a maximum daily transaction of $2,000! Felt the panic slowly crawling up my throat when the nurse told me that my chipped Masters card cannot be used. And she informed me about maximum limit for NETS, meaning I didn’t have enough money to pay for the procedure.

Gave her that by-now-famous-Daji’s-howhowhow look, before she told me I can pay the remainder on the following day. Phew~ No more hiccups from then on.

Next I was led to do some final checkups on my eyes, before the nurse gave me a sleeping pill and some panadols. She then took some time to explain to me what to do and what not to do after the procedure. Found it quite cute as she demonstrated the use of the eye shields. And then I was led to several rooms to be left alone, apparently to rest and wait.

It was in one of these waiting rooms that I first heard the lasers doing their work. Peee~ Dek~ Dek~ Dek~ After the nurse came in for the last time to clean my eyes. I had the chance to sit and reflect against the machine precision of laser sounds. It’s like an oral exam; I sat there and wait and wonder what would happen later.

Dr Lee popped in for a short while and interrupted my reverie. He explained that there would be no pain. That was a point they stressed a lot. The only thing I’ll feel would be a slight pressure on my eyes. Then he disappeared again.

Then it’s my turn. After I was laid down on that bed, everything became blur. Even the words Dr Lee and his assistant said didn’t connect in my head. Then I felt a not-so-slight pressure around my eyes. It wasn’t slight as they said and though it wasn’t particular fierce, it was enough to make me stiffen. I guess this was the stage that the Intralase was used to cut my corneas. Thankfully it went fast. I vaguely hear the assistant calling out times.

As I mentioned, everything was a blur. And fast. They dropped lots of eye-drops on my eyes so that I could barely see out of them even if I had perfect eyesight. I only caught one instruction then, which was to look at the blinking red light. It was one I adhered to religiously. They had to repeat the instruction to close my eyes a few times before I relent.

Didn’t feel anything at this stage. There was only the acrid smell of burning tissue and the aforementioned laser sounds. Just felt like an observer, watching them as they shot green lasers (I think)at my eyes, use an ice cream stick-looking thing to push back the flap and staring at that persistent red, blinking light. That part was certainly more comfortable than that pressure part.

It was over as soon as it started.

I was told to blink to clear the eye-drops and helped up. Everything still seem blur but it’s like surfacing from the water; clear (relatively) vision came after a few blinks. That was then the full power of sleeping pill hit. Wow, I staggered after let me go. It was as if I forgot that I took the pill after the whole procedure.

What happened after that was trivial already. I was led to this dark room to sleep for supposedly half an hour. It certainly felt less than that when the nurse peeked in and woke me up to be congratulated by Dr Lee on a successful operation.

All in all, a really simple operation with very little discomfort. Maybe except that pressure part, though it was still bearable. Everything is still hazy now and light sources have these pretty auras but I was told to expect these. Things will gradually go back to normal.

Now I’m just feeling exhausted after the operation, the sleeping pill and the guitar lesson (yup, I still went).

The eye shield thing quite fun. Haha~

Posted by: cloudie | October 13, 2009

Last Minute

Seems that my nerves learn well from their master. They too strike in the last minute.

But I’m sure nothing will go wrong tomorrow. Confidence begets confidence and anyway, machines don’t have shaky hands! Heh~

~two fingers crossed

Anyway, the melody that Am-Dm-Em-Am chords make is so haunting… I think I’ll be stuck with it till my lesson tomorrow. Hope MY hands won’t shake tomorrow. Haha~

Posted by: cloudie | October 12, 2009

Tail-less Wonder

Jay: They said that if you snip off the tail of a dog, the dog will be more obedient.

Me: Really? Is that why eunuchs are so obedient?

Pauline: I worry for your kids next time.

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